Slow piece of shit

I should really consider quitting track. I already lost my drive, motivation, momentum, inspiration and reason to compete. And to top it off, I just fucking came in 2nd for my heats. I have zero confidence and half the time was spent looking out for the top runners of each heat. Thanks. I thank the fucking lungs that decided to give up on my last year to perform and stupid genes that are responsible for that damn condition. Let me wallow in self-pity. I may emerge stronger. Is this the usual reaction of the loser athlete? ):